Week 3 Training

Monday – Gym Day! I really sucked today. Everything felt hard. I couldn’t move right. I felt slow and awkward. Somehow, the time went by. I came home and went back to bed. What is happening to me? Why can’t I get this?

Tuesday – Is run day! It started out okay, but my calves were heavy and sore right away. They often are, but it usually goes away after a mile. I was thinking I’d do 30 minutes just to get the minimum done. In that first mile, I started thinking, you gotta go longer than that — you should do 35 minutes, you got this. Besides, 5 minutes more is easy. I do take regular walk breaks and had planned to walk at the 2-mile mark for 2 minutes. Today it was hard to get back to running after that break.

Come on, Brenda — it’s only Tuesday, you’ve got all week. This is when consistency is gonna make the difference. Just because I’m not feeling strong doesn’t mean I’m not. Things are not always easy. Doubt is sinking in — if I’m already having trouble, how am I going to do this marathon? It’s going to be super hard, which is why we’re training to just finish it.

Reflecting now with my coffee on the lanai, grateful for this journey and all I have learned — and will learn. Remember, not every day is great or even good, but all in all, it’s an amazing life experience! This journey will be a challenge.

Wednesday – Experimental Rest Day This is the second week of trying it out. So far, it’s been good. I may need two rest days a week. The last two days have been hard for me — feeling like I’m just not strong enough. Enjoying a cup of coffee with the dawn. Birds singing too! Pink clouds, although we have the smell of fire in the air.

Thursday –I didn’t sleep well at all last night — tossing and turning most of the night. So when my alarm went off, I did get up. But while in the bathroom, I just knew I needed more sleep. So I went back to bed for a whole hour. I needed that — but no run this morning. I feel better with the sleep, but I need to figure out this Thursday morning thing. Why am I extra tired on Thursdays? I can’t keep doing this every week. Thursday is a run day.

And then, out of the blue, my back starts hurting — like, really hurting. It’s actually been feeling really good lately, so I don’t understand why. I didn’t do anything. LOL maybe that’s why — I needed to run so it wouldn’t hurt.

Friday –So, my back isn’t feeling like it should. I skipped the gym and went for a walk. Walking helped so much! I can still feel it — it feels so tight. I’m getting a little nervous and not sure what to do to take care of myself.

I have 6 miles to run on Sunday. They have to get done.

Why am I having such a hard time? I’m thinking it’s in my head. I’ve got to change this mindset that has somehow sunken in.